4/13/2004

first of all, a much-needed apology is in order.

james, i am for being mean to you and taking for granted our friendship.
andrea, i am sorry for inferring that you were not my friend.
jason, if you read this, i am sorry for taking our friendship for granted as well. i wish you would call me or something.

now, down to business.

james, you know what hell i go through every time a down cycle hits. you also know the pain i've gone through in discovering what carroll really has in store for me. let me say that i am sorry for you and that i truly do sympathize.

it did miff me a bit when you didn't stop by mcdonald's that night, especially when we knew we wouldn't see each other the following day. upon discovering the wonderful time you've been having, however, i understand. note sarcasm. the real frustration, though, was being told that both you and andrea went bowling. the reason jess and i didn't go bowling was because we were under the impression that you wouldn't be there.

now, i mean no offense to any other friends of mine who happen to read this, and this means you, jerod. but james is easily the best friend i have outside of matt and jess, who are in that order only because i can't list two people at the same time. by nature of human language, i have to list someone first, and since i've known matt longer, he comes first. but that by no means puts jess second. back to my point. i've known james a long time; roughly six years, to me, is a long time. and i don't mean to say that i didn't want or care to see jon, ralph, or laura (whom i still think of as javyn), i would just like to see more of james. due to school and work, we see so little of each other anyway.

so, here i am, descending into the down cycle of manic depression, and jerod tells me that james and andrea show up for bowling. when i'm in a down cycle, nothing processes the way it should. what should have gone through my head was, "aw, too bad we didn't go bowling after all." what actually went through my head was, "so he says he won't go bowling when i do, but then when i say i won't, he goes!" or something like that. and i stayed pissed off until the cycle reversed itself (note: the cycle always reverses itself; i rarely, if ever, have any control over it) and i realized that i was a dick. again. and again, i apologize for my actions.

and then there was the whole thing where paul says something sarcastic and james takes it the wrong way. or maybe it's just that emotions are hard to read in text. i don't know. but james, i really would like to redesign your site (to your liking, of course). it's the kind of thing i like to do. but then, i hold to my original idea more.

this week's comic will, i hope, be up sometime tomorrow. i have no promises, since i have alot of work to do tomorrow as well. i did get most of the coloring today, but as i spent 4+ hours writing code, i was also very tired and stricken with a headache. also, concerning the sidebar links, i discovered today that popup blockers block them (since they are popup links). so tell me: should i make them regular old links?

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